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Does anyone know what to look for when searching for a quiet place?
I'm quickly losing what sanity I have left. There are some things going on in my life I'm really, really having a hard time coping with. Mostly because I haven't had enough time to breathe in the dust of it all.
I was looking forward to hopefully being completely and totally alone for at least a few hours this weekend, since my dad has to work from 12 to 5, but his girlfriend is probably going to be here. I don't know how to talk to her, so it's awkward. I can't exactly let my emotions out around her, since I don't know her well enough to do so, and she has her own problems (that are also affecting me).
I really need to find somewhere I can be alone without the possibility of dying of heat stroke, or at least a quiet place where everyone minds their own business. I was thinking the park, but then remembered that it got up to 102 degrees Fahrenheit here today/yesterday (I'm writing this at 3 AM). I'm also really broke, so I can't really go to a museum or something.
I just desperately need a place to breathe.
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The Cupcake's body is drying..
Tomorrow, I need to buy more paint, make sure the body's dry, rub dirt on all the parts (and paint the teeth after I glue it into the little dude's head).
Hopefully Hobby Lobby has a thing that lets me open and close his mouth. That'd be AMAZING and exactly what I hope to accomplish for this.
Has thoroughly distracted my dumb ass from my depressing and dark af thoughts!
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I'm so glad that people like my cupcake progress! I'm currently waiting for his teeth and the little icing droops to finish drying (They're air-dry clay), then I can make the upper and lower jaws, and paint all of it Heart

Five Nights at Freddys 4 - Nightmare Cupcake - GIF <<< I'll be seeing you soon buddy <3
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www.twitch.tv/traitorousbanana

Watch me fail?

EDIT:
Nevermind, shit decided to get stupid and the stream is off. Sorry.
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I'll probably be doing that!
I gotta download a program to broadcast the stuff first, though. I'll put a link here in a sec!
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  • Watching: The Nightly Show with Larry Wilmore
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I wanna RP so badly
But a yaoi rp... (Lolol is it ironic that I'm a lesbian? I've been told that it is)
I don't exactly want a complicated plot either. Just.. They meet and they end up liking each other and stuff.
Just a sweet gushy gross thing that'll probably make you vomit rainbows and make you have to get cavities filled.
But there are a few issues with that:
  1. I can't find A FORUM OR SEME
  2. Most people want a fuckin novel for a response/starter (I'm not good with my words)
  3. Whenever I join an RP it usually dies within 24 hours or a week.

If someone knows an area to point me in, that'd be appreciated x_x

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Sorry 'bout that!
I had a week away from my laptop because it had a small worm on it and we had to take it (and my parents' laptop, which is WAY worse than mine) up to the shop to get it fixed/cleaned. They're still working on my parents' laptop, so.. Yeah.
I'm really wanting to start writing and drawing and everything again.
I'm not sure how that'd work out though tbh.
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So a while ago, my friends and I (upon me bringing it up and saying "Hey we should do this") decided that we were going to do a fandomstuck panel for Tokyo in Tulsa. I REALLY wanted to be the Hetalia fandom (I've done the math and I've actually been in the fandom since season 1, so that's 6 years.. Plus, as soon as I found out that fandomstuck was a thing, I semi-started working on the cosplay), but a friend immediately claimed him. So I decided I'd take Doctor Who, since I'm deep in that fandom as well (not as deep, but still), and I started working on him from having nothing for him (Whereas I have the basic outfit for Hetalia done *just needs the jacket and curl, and I know how I'd MAKE the curl*) to having almost everything for him now (Just need the coat but I haven't found a good coat I'd need for him).
Turn of events happens, and my friend that grabbed Hetalia can't go to the con because of financial reasons. I've been kinda hinting that I'd take her place, and my friend agreed that we do know more Whovians than we know Hetalians, so the replacement would be pretty easy to do. My friend, though, said "I like you better as Doctor Who," and it kinda bugs me.
Yes I'm in the fandom pretty hardcore, but I'm afraid I won't know everything that could possibly be referred to in the panel by the audience, whereas with Hetalia, I could easily do it, and I'm pretty damn emotionally attached to everything with the series(Jeanne D'Arc feels, Davie feels, Prussia feels. *almost cried with those things*)(This doesn't say that I'm not emotionally invested in Doctor Who, I am, but there's been a longer connection than Doctor Who). I also know about a LOT of things that happen within the fandom (especially with Tumblr, where like 85-90% of the blogs I follow are Hetalia).
What I need advice on: How should I basically say "Hey, because of these reasons, do you mind if I'm Hetalia instead of Doctor Who?"
This thing is basically my panel (I thought of it, I'm going to submit it once I get an idea for what all to do in the panel, etc.), so a big part of me is telling me "Just say 'We're going to find a replacement for my spot, okay?' and if anyone has a problem with it, they can nut up or shut up" but another side keeps saying "That's being unfair, your friends'll be pissed at you and probably hate you at the end of it all." The con is in July, so I have enough time to get the rest of the costume together (Which'll be easy) and find people we'd need, but.. I dunno. I'm not good with confrontation, and I have anxiety issues, so that doesn't help.

Something else that bothers me is that my friend talked about the sister of the friend who can't go being Hetalia, but she HATES the girl, and I'd probably start beating the hell out of her too if she gets something wrong or makes a joke that's actually a trigger for the fandom, or doesn't know what the hell someone's talking about.... Basically she doesn't know the fandom well enough (and if you're the personification of the fandom, you kinda definitely have to know certain important things like that). I'm definitely not giving the position to her.

Anyway, what should I say/do?
So this exists
www.hollywoodreporter.com/heat…

And I honestly hope it's fake. The whole fun of FNAF is having multiple theories to the story. How it all happened, who's responsible, what happened where, etc.

Like, we know the general story: 5 (or so, personally I think 6 kids were killed) kids were killed by someone, "purple guy," and shoved into the mascot's suits, the kids possessed the suits, blah blah pizzeria, blah blah whatever, you know it by now if you play/pay attention to the game and its fandom.

How the fandom is about this game, a movie would just ruin it all for us, mostly because of the mystery. The best part about the game and the fandom is our ability to use what are canon facts to try and solve the mystery behind the murders, purple guy, and other various things. Hell, I've written a theory about FNAF, and I'd honestly be insulted if they went with some theory that hadn't been completely thought out. With the release of FNAF 3, I'm revising my own theory, so if they REALLY want to go through with a movie, they should wait for the series to be completely, unquestionably over, then ask Scott what they can and can't reveal about the story of the series, or ask him what's true, and what's just fanon.

Basically, if they're doing a movie, they really should have Scott overlook their decisions, so that it can be accurate and canon, not based on the very mixed theories of the community. It WOULD, sadly, put pressure on Scott, but it'd make it all the better for us all.
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I've been sick since Monday night and I wish I could just throw up and get it over with.
I was feeling much better than I had before this morning, too, but my new allergy medicine made me numb, shaky, and unable to really walk or stand for very long.
Ughhhh
I hope I'm better by tomorrow, because I really want to go see The Lazarus Effect tomorrow if possible x_x
It also gets really boring staying here and feeling like crap.
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I hate having child-bearing hips and a big butt and thighs.
It makes shopping for male jeans/pants a nightmare ._.
Why am I looking for such things?
Gender identity stare 
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Anyone know a good site that doesn't have a f*cking "paragraph per post/reply" rule??
Also where you don't have a designated frigging place for your OCs where you absolutely HAVE to post or else you get banned for 213561231 days??
I knew a really good one, yaoi-rp-haven.webs.com, but it's frozen/completely down.
I haven't RPed in SO long and I'm getting antsy for going back to it slkfjsdklfjskldfj
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♔ If we lived together.. ♔
[ ] argue all the time
[ ] sex sex sex
[ ] watch movies
[ ] prank call
[ ] chat
[ ] dnm
[ ] play fight
[ ] cuddle
[ ] kiss
[ ] throw a mean-ass party
[ ] make out
[ ] whatever you want
[ ] I wouldn't want to live with you

♔ If we kissed by accident, I would... ♔
[ ] bite your lip softly
[ ] kiss you back
[ ] slap you
[ ] laugh about it
[ ] stand there wondering if I should kiss you again
[ ] it wouldn't happen
[ ] it'll never ever ever ever happen, so don't get your hopes up

♔ If you held my hand, I would... ♔
[ ] lock my fingers in between yours
[ ] stand there like wtf are you doing
[ ] let you keep it
[ ] pull away
[ ] idk

♔ If you hugged me, I would... ♔
[ ] hug you back
[ ] push away
[ ] be shocked
[ ] i wouldn't hug you

♔ Would I date you? ♔
[ ] yeah
[ ] maybe
[ ] nahhhhh
[ ] idk
[ ] nah we're basically brother/sister
[ ] already have

♔ If we walked home together, I'd... ♔
[ ] hold your hand
[ ] push you in a bush
[ ] trip you and run
[ ] give you a biiiiiiig hug
[ ] have a heart to heart conversation
[ ] act like idiots

♔ In 10 years, I see you... ♔
[ ] pregnant
[ ] a celebrity/famous person
[ ] model
[ ] crackhead
[ ] same as now
[ ] athlete
[ ] party every night
[ ] in university

♔ I can see us... ♔
[ ] living together
[ ] being close
[ ] not talking
[ ] married
[ ] chilling
[ ] partying together

♔ You should... ♔
[ ] talk to me more
[ ] chill with me
[ ] write on my wall
[ ] stop being a stranger
[ ] text me
[ ] call me
[ ] skype with me
[ ] put this as your journal so i can comment on it
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Yay! I now have a sewing machine! I can't wait to start on cosplays, I just tested the settings for the stitching, and they all turned out AWESOME.
I'm so glad that I still remember how to use this, it's been since middle school since I really used one.
Ahhh <3 So happy about that.
But I need money for materials. I'm gonna ask friends if they have anything they need sewn, or anything they'd pay me to sew for them. Or even you guys. I wouldn't mind!
In other news, I finally cleaned up about half of my room. Which isn't really saying much, since my bed is still trashed and so is near my dresser.
If I had more room and less bed (Seriously, it's just me. I don't need a full size mattress), I could fit more things in my room, and have more space to move around. I'd LOVE to have a bookshelf in my room for all of my manga and other books that I have, but no. I wonder what my parents would think if I asked if we could possibly trade the bed I have now for a twin.
Then again, I'm REALLY sentimental, and the bed belonged to my grandma (and the headboard belonged to my great-granny). But still, I'd REALLY like for it to be smaller, for storage's sake.
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Yay! I'm 19 now~
*cough*twoyearsclosertolegallybeingabletodrinkandI'mgettingsmashedknowingmyfriends*cough*
I don't know what I'm doing yet, I just know that I'm getting kidnapped and taken somewhere I don't know the location of, because instead of saying it, my friend described it as "The place we're totally not going."
... I wonder if it's Chuck-E Cheese or something since I'm a huge FNAF fan and they were going to make a cake and write "Five Nights at Freddy's Bullshit" on it (literally those words).
We were also possibly going to cosplay some of our trash (Homestuck, Hetalia, or closet FNAF.... Probably going to end up being Homestuck).
Today's started off great and stress-free, so let's hope it stays that way!
Hetalia Spinning Italy Pasta Icon Ve~ 
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No I'm not up at 2:00 AM because I took a nap from 9-12:00.
Not at all
...
Anyway, merry Christmas! Hope y'all have a wonderful one!
Sorry about my bitchiness in my latest journals.. Or, well, my weird excitement and spazzing....
Thanks for putting up with my bs, basically.
But y'all have an awesome holiday~
Merry christmas everybody 
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One of my obsessions I've had has resurfaced
If you've watched K (Or K Project), you probably know the ships
My favorite ship that I SWEAR TO SKIA is canon is KuroShiro
Why?
Well
Official. F*cking. Art.
Look at this shiz nit
Kuro (Or Kuroh wtfever) being a waifu (*cough*eventhoughhe'dtotallytop*cough*)
King and queen right friking there
Yay dancing
Admit you like holding his hand, dude. It's not hard. We all love it regardless.
The arm over the shoulder? Meaning: It mine.
I don't even know what to say about this one
THEY ARE INTRODUCED TOGETHER ARE YOU SH*TTINGME
HAND. ON. THE. THIGH.
imageTHIS MOTHERF*CKER IN A DAMN MAGAZINE
ALONG WITH OTHERS.
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE MOFOS IS OFFICIAL FLUGGING ART.
FIGHT ME.
...
..
.
I should go to bed.
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(AKA Five Nights at Freddy's)
I'm going to just link the thing from my Tumblr.. I don't feel like regurgitating it all.
Here's my theory
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Kinda need some help with something
Does anyone know of any good advice blogs on Tumblr or something?
I just asked my followers on Tumblr, but I highly doubt I'll get any responses. I'm honestly lucky if I get 5 notes in a week.
Funny, because I have 75 followers.
Eh.
Don't ask for details, at least in the comments, okay?
I mean... It's something I just realized today, and it was a bit late to realize the thing.

Oh, on a positive note, I'm now on night 4 of FNAF 2.. Ye.
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So I bought Five Nights at Freddy's 2 and I'm on the third night.
FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU
List of the animatronics I hate right now:
  1. OLD FOXY. (Love but hate him. He eats me regularly.)
  2. OLD BONNIE. WHAT THE HELL DOES IT TAKE TO PLEASE YOU.
  3. BALLOON BOY. (Little bastard needs to keep Foxy away from me. Dick.)

Will update y'all on these developments as they come.

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